Ok folks...

The only thing that scares me, is something happening to those I love.  (After many years as a paramedic, I am totally paranoid about accidents ...)

But...  as Halloween draws closer, I am getting really scared to have my finger amputated.  Sorry if I keep bringing this up here and there, and I know it's 'only a finger' ... and I know things could be worse.  But, it's MY finger, and the loss of my violin & guitar ... and when I think about them cutting it off, I feel nauseous!  I still have two weeks to go, and each day I get worse.

 help...?