A really close friend of mine died today in a freak skydiving accident. I'm mixed between feeling like I'm going to throw up and like my body is numbed. I cannnot digest that this has just happened. She was 34 and she has two children who I am particularly close to.
I don't know how to deal with this. My God.
I'll never see her again, never talk to her on the phone again and if I had any idea that wednesday was going to be the last time I'd ever see her.. Fuck it. there's so much I would have done differently. I would have insisted on a longer visit and I'd have told her that I loved her and we went through so much together and she just was such a unique beautiful person.
